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I feel down today. I feel like isolatlng myself and vegging out for a while. This weekend may be good for that...
Call it depression, call it a curse, but all I'm thinking about right now are all the mistakes in life that I've made.
...maybe the life of a hermit is the life for me. I feel lost and without direction in life, and it doesn't show any signs of change, either.
For a nice New Years Party, at the moment it looks like I'll attend a party of whom I know the host and two ex-friends, out of a group of about 15. I worry that I'll surround myself with food and videogames and act like my typical wallflowerish self.
Last year, I was invited to a New Years Party consisting of a few close friends from Anime Vortex, an anime club I used to frequent. (I always brought a videogame system and we had riotous matches of Goldeneye at the shows ^_^) I haven't heard anything from them this year, aside from Kinnon mentioning that the primary couple have broken up... O_o
...and again I take a half-hour nap and I feel not-so-depressed, and OK with going to this New Year's Party. I think I may be depriving myself of sleep. :/
Tomorrow I go to the car dealership to sit in the car. I still haven't decided if I want/need the car, but for the past week I've only had it one day. After a few days of taking the bus (because it's snowing and my Dad can't drive his mid-life crisis) it becomes annoying. But is it worth spending 1/4 of my salary for it?
At least tonight I got picked up...
Call it depression, call it a curse, but all I'm thinking about right now are all the mistakes in life that I've made.
...maybe the life of a hermit is the life for me. I feel lost and without direction in life, and it doesn't show any signs of change, either.
For a nice New Years Party, at the moment it looks like I'll attend a party of whom I know the host and two ex-friends, out of a group of about 15. I worry that I'll surround myself with food and videogames and act like my typical wallflowerish self.
Last year, I was invited to a New Years Party consisting of a few close friends from Anime Vortex, an anime club I used to frequent. (I always brought a videogame system and we had riotous matches of Goldeneye at the shows ^_^) I haven't heard anything from them this year, aside from Kinnon mentioning that the primary couple have broken up... O_o
...and again I take a half-hour nap and I feel not-so-depressed, and OK with going to this New Year's Party. I think I may be depriving myself of sleep. :/
Tomorrow I go to the car dealership to sit in the car. I still haven't decided if I want/need the car, but for the past week I've only had it one day. After a few days of taking the bus (because it's snowing and my Dad can't drive his mid-life crisis) it becomes annoying. But is it worth spending 1/4 of my salary for it?
At least tonight I got picked up...
nji
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